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Your last entry reminds me so much of her. If you don't want to talk to me, that's fine. Don't have to tell me you ain't got the mood to laugh. And I am so goddamn sorry for prying into whatever thing you don't want to talk about. I was just being fakking K-E-P-O. And just like her, you are giving me my migraine attack now.

Let's see how you gonna screw me

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You called yesterday morning and told me that the rice is almost finished. From the way you said it, you expected me to come running home and give you the money to buy some rice when I was already on the way to work. You know how heavy a 10-kg pack of rice is? I didn't know until I carried it home. I didn't have a choice did I? You were so goddamn lazy you won't come down and help me. The least you could do was cook for me but you didn't. I have spending money on kopi tiam food. It has been a while since I last packed my lunch. When I had my dinner outside, then and only did you cook. What lah you? What is the point of being going to Shng Shiong all this while if you didn't want to cook? If not for me, then for the old man lah. Your son came home last night. Did you cook something for him? I'm the one you talk to when you need a listening ear, I'm the one you gossip with about your siblings, I'm the one who is making your life bearable at least for a while and I am also the one you are willing to cast away. Since he is working, maybe I should stop paying the bills huh? Maybe it is time for me to be selfish and think about myself and my future pulak. All this while I have been concerned about others, who is going to be concerned about me?

That's why I love my mother-in-law. She cooks what I like to eat, she treats me like a family member, she shows that I mean a lot to her son, she's not calculative, she's friendly. She knows when I kepala angin. She doesn't pester me, she gives me and her son some privacy in the bedroom even when we are not doing the hanky-panky. My own mother...when I'm alone in the room with Ash, she's always in and out the room, checking on us. Am I like like 15 years old??

Would be hurt if you read this? I'm sorry but I am so tired of being bullied. When you are concerned, I am so weak. Maybe because you are after all my mother and because you are my elder. I have been brought up to be respectful to my elders and I am.

Got to go to work. Work is my refuge from my boring life. Lagi-lagi sekarang ni dah manyak OT. I got off work at 9 last night. Tired...but I don't mind. When I see my payslip next month, I would be all smiles.

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Boring sial tadi pat keje. A memo just came out stating that handphones, walkmans and discmans are not allowed in the production line. Fak lah. Sapa lah punya angkara sampai kluar undang-undang ni? Bingit sial aku Dah tak boleh dengar Power 98 FM in the mornings. I just love that Denise Tan. She got me up and laughing all the time even when I was depressed. Ash has to find another alarm clock to wake him up now.

I heard from somebody that it was razor blade's besdey yesterday and she celebrated at Habib with her old timer gang. And who is razor blade? Somebody I used to know when I first start chatting. And why did I call her that? It is because she is always clinging on to some guy who got the money and the car. When I met her in 1998, I thought she looked matured and sophisticated, making me feel childish and unfeminine. After I knew her, I thought she was great. And now after some time she turn out to be just a fak hole for all the guys who have the cash and the vehicle. I remember a time when she used to say that we will never quarrel over any guy. Of course we won't. I always fall for someone who either has enough to eat or nothing at all. But that's ok. I'm not a materialistic kind of person anyway. Wonder why she like to be around older people Maybe that's why she look older than she really is. Me? I look young because I surrounded myself with young people

I dedicate this song to you razor blade...

Buy me diamonds and rubies
I'm crazy bout Bentley's
Gucci dresses and dropped up compressors
Wine me and dine me
Bring those platinum rings
Those are a few of our favourite things

What I need is a gentleman
Who does the best he can
There to hold my hand
I want him to understand
Of course I want diamonds and expensive things
Cos a girl gotta have her favourite things

~~~Big Brovaz~~~

Hepi besdey razor blade. Hope you get HIV soon

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Here is something to do when you are feeling bored...

This is me
Unrelenting
strange and full of contrasts
often egoistic
aggressive
noble
broad horizon
unexpected reactions
spontaneous
unlimited ambition
no flexibility
difficult and uncommon partner
not always liked but often admired
ingenious strategist very jealous and passionate
no compromises

This is Ash...
Of rare beauty
knows how to adapt
likes luxury
of good health not in the least shy
tends to look down on others
self-confident
determined
impatient
wants to impress others
many talents
industrious
healthy optimism
waiting for the one true love
able to make quick decisions

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Was going to blog at Ash's place yesterday but was too tired. I was rushing to finish Ngaio Marsh's paperback. Supposed to return the books today but I still haven't finished the other one. Helped Ash's mother with the laundry. She started work about two weeks ago and even though it is only on a part time basis, she must be tired having to do the housework all by herself. I wonder if my mother would want to work if she had the chance to do so If I had the extra cash, I would really like to hire a maid for her. At least when I'm not around she still has someone to bully

About the washing machine, God must have heard my sigh because I got this business card, dealing with repairing airconds, ovens and tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa washing machine. So I can stop thinking about buying a new one. Once I get my pay, I am calling the repairman.

Hey girlfriend...I'm sorry I couldn't be there when you needed me I was so looking forward to meeting Ash. I know I let you down and a 1000 apologies just ain't enough. Even though I couldn't be beside you, you can always call me. I'm here for you.

WELCOME HOME BUDDY
It's about time you come back home. I kinda miss quarrelling with you. I'm sorry for whatever nasty things I said about you. It was because I was beladi worried when I didn't get any news from you. And I am definitely deliriously happy that you had finally broken up with her. I don't want to be a firestone but I really do think she doesn't deserve you. Even after what you had done and sacrificed for her, she never truly appreciated you. Nevermind...I know somewhere out there, there is a girl waiting for you. Just keep looking boy! If not, you want me to recommend you somebody?

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Woooooooooooohoooooooooooo Ash just gave me his housekeys this morning
He had been thinking about doing that for so long but hadn't got round about making the spare keys. Isn't that sweet of him? I'm not even legally married to him and yet he always refers his house as our house. And he made me cum twice today I must have been a good girl today.

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Just got to know that the washing machine is down, can't spin no more. Mom told me to buy a washboard. For what siak? Nak wash clothes by hand? Gila ke pe? Aku cuma cakap "macam-macam je"...dia nyer bebel macam apa je. She doesn't understand what I mean. I can't let her wash the clothes manually. Nanti dia kata aku seksa dia plak. Pandai pulak bersora dengan aku. Why didn't you tell your precious son huh? He left you again? He's not home for 4-5 days I think. Tak cari pulak. Kalau aku yang tak balik, kalau boleh nak tepon satu negeri. Dah tentu-tentu aku selalu pegi satu tempat je pe - umah si Ash. Tanya kat mana lah balik ke tak lah. Fedap aku. Do I have to tell you where I go whenever I want to go? Aku cakap dia bukak volume tv kuat sangat pun tak jalan Ye lah aku ni sapa kan? Orang yang menumpang je kat umah ni. I don't fakking care lah about the house. All I know I work cari duit. Apa-apa kat umah none of my beladi bisnez. She is spending way too much time being a couch potato. I tried to excuse her. I know how bored staying home can be but too much lah kadang-kadang. Kalau mak Ash can do everything at home by herself, why not my own mother? Mak Ash tu lagi tua dari mak aku tapi dia aktif. Takde nak pikir hal-hal yang menyusahkan dia.

Sebetulnya aku fedap dok sini. Tak pe lah besok aku dah balik sana. Dok sorang-sorang pun tak pe as long as I got a little bit of peace in my head, away from these kentang goreng nyer orang.

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I feel good about myself today. I just saved an ant from drowning in the pail I know it's nothing to you but I did something good pe.

Just come back from work. Cannot wait to be sitting in front of my pc. Ash is my soulmate but my pc is my plaything when he is not around. I even named it Samson (monitor Samsung pe)

I was a bit pissed off at mom tadi. She promised me she would cook egg sambal for me so that I could pack it for lunch at work. I woke up, checked the kitchen and there was nothing. It doesn't matter to me who the person is but if you promise me something you beladi well keep that promise. At least if she had called me in the morning I might be just a bit appeased kan. She called me after I had my lunch. I had already told her last night don't bother to cook if she was tired. She said "tak pe..mak masak..besok pagi ko bleh bungkus bawak gi keje". Apa aku bawak tadi? Habuk je

Tomorrow I will be meeting my baby. Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! But it will be like a few minutes only lah because by the time I reach our home, he would be getting ready to go to work but I would have some time with him on Sunday. Even if we don't have enough time to be together, at least we are spending some quality time.

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Macam sakit gitu aku tengok pepek pompan ni. Reminds me of a song...

The Thong Song by Sisqo

Is lettin' all the ladies know
What guys talk about
You know, the finer things in life
a heh heh heh
Check it Out

Ooh that dress so scandalous
And you know another nigga can't handle it
So you shakin that thang like who's the ish
With a look in yer eyes so devilish
Uh
You like to dance on the hip hop spots
And you cruise to grooves to connect the dots
Not just urban she like the pop
'Cause she was Livin' La Vida Loca

Chorus
She had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
Baby move your butt, butt, butt
I think i'll sing it again
She had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
All night long
Let me see that thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong (2x)

That girl so scandalous
And I know another nigga can't handle it
And she shakin' that thing like who's the ish
With a look in her eyes so devilish
She like to dance on the hip hop spots
And she cruise to the grooves to connect the dots
Not just urban she like the pop
Cause she was Livin La Vida Loca

Repeat chorus

That dress so scandalous
I swear another nigga couldn't handle it
When you shakin' that thing like whose the ish
With a look in your eyes do devilish
Uh
You like to dance on the hip hop spots
Then you cruise to the grooves to connect the dots
Not just urban you like the pop
Cause she was Livin La Vida Loca

She had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
Baby move your butt, butt, butt, uh
I think i'll sing it again
'Cause she had dumps like a truck, truck, truck
Thighs like what, what, what
Baby move your butt, butt, butt, uh
I think i'll sing it again
C'mon (4x)
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong (5x)
Thong, thong, thong, thong, thong
Duh dun duh
Duh dun duh
Duh dun duh (2x)
Thong, thong, thong, thong, thong
I like it when the beat goes
Duh dun duh
Baby make your booty go
Duh dun duh
Baby I know you wanna show
Duh dun duh
That thong thong thong thong thong (3x)

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Feel like crapping. Maybe I do that tomorrow morning. Anyway my pc is beladi slow. Cannot defrag already. Thinking of asking a Yahoo friend to do repairs. Aizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz duit lagi but for as long as I am still living here, I need this pc.

Most probably I could save some money in this coming months. My mother's son is starting work last Monday. Good for him. He could be the man of the house again and I might be outta here soon.

Back from meeting a gal pal at Jurong Point. We had fun. We always do. The one thing I really like about her is I can say whatever I want and she won't be mad. Even if she is, I think she won't save it for months and then scolded me out of the blue. She complained that I'm stubborn and too sensitive. Fancy calling me stubborn. She is just as bad lah. Like I said tadi periuk calling the cerek hitam. Whatever advice I gave you for free wasted sial. The only character I dislike about her is her short attention span. But she's cool. She really is.

Yesterday I had a tiff with Ash. Again. He was late meeting me and he had the decency not to call me. The ass! He went and meet his blood earlier in the day. I had had already asked would he be late and he promised me he would be there on time. I purposely went to our meeting place lambat-lambat. Sengaja pe nak cari pasal. By the time I met him, both of our faces were a mile long. He of course didn't apologise and I had no smiles or kisses to greet him. Aku dah lah penat-penat balik keje dia pulak ikut rentak aku. Sebelum jumpa aku dah mepek kerepek pepek, saying stuff like he was just like my mother lah, he didn't keep his promises lah, he made other people important lah. Dia punya mepek plak dia kata aku tak appreciate dia. Kalau aku baling ni pc kat muka dia, baru tau Of course lah I appreciate him but I can't t tolerate him being late wheneve he is supposed to meet me after work. When we took the train home, we were practically like strangers. Satu gi sini satu gi sana. I hate being ignored. I told him if he didn't want me to be around, say so. I was thinking of alighting at the next stop. Luckily he held my hands then. If not goodbye sial

But you know papa...you make me feel so desirable lah when you said, you get h-o-r-n-y just by looking at my kitty cat. That was one of the nicest things you could have told me. I felt sooooooooooooooo delighted. Can't hide it. Love you lots!

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I feel so much like an outsider now. You were never up so early for me when I go to work. Even if you wake up it's only because you have to go pee. You had never make me any tea or coffee. Even though I don't drink, it would be nice if you had offered to do that. Why do you have to treat me so differently? Why do you make it so obvious that you don't prefer me? Why was I made if this is how you are going to treat me for the rest of your life? I will never be good enough for you. Never had, never am, never will be. I wish you could read this. I wish you know how I feel. Then you would not be surprised that I would move out once he starts work. I can't live with you, watching you loving me less. I am so sick of being the invisible one, of being the one different. I am so tired of being made to feel like a loser, of feeling that I mean nothing to you. I am so bored of coming home to you and seeing how depressed you make me feel everytime I step into the house. Don't tell me about giving in just because I am the eldest. I have been doing that since the day he was born. Don't tell me you love me silently. You don't love me as much as you love him. Period.

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Feel Good Time by Pink

Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo.....
[laughs]
we go where we like,
we got over time,
we get paid 2 rattle our, chains

we go in the back,
paint our money black,
spend it on the enemy

sleeping in the church,
riding in the dirt,
put a banner over my grave

Make a body work,
make a begger hurt,
sell me sumthing big and untamed

[Chorus]

Now our time, real good time,
(doo doo doo doo doo doo..)

now our time, a real good time
(doo doo doo doo doo doo..)

now our time, ( SAID NOW OUR TIME), a real good time (ITS A REALLY GOOD TIME!)

HEY AAAAAAA BE ALL MINE

we know how 2 pray,
party everyday,
make our desillation unsafe.........
(not 2 sure if unsafe is the rite word )

riding in a rut,
till the powers cut,
we dont even have a good name

sleeping in the church,
riding in the dirt,
put a banner over my grave

Make a body work,
make a begger hurt,
sell me sumthing big and untamed

[Chorus]

...Now our time, real good time, oohh
(doo doo doo doo doo doo..)
now our time, a real good time
( doo doo........)
now our time, ( NOW IT OUR TIME), a real good time

hey AAAAAA BE ALL MINE

doo doo doo doo....baby....i can fly...yeh
(sell me sumthin big and untamed)

now are time, real good time ......oh,
(doo doo doo doo doo doo doo)
now our time (I SAID NOW OUR TIME),
(doo doo doo doo doo doo)
real good time (ITS A REALLY GOOD TIME)
now are time, real good time .....

Feel good,
Real good, its the same old same

Real good,
Feel good, dont got no more brains

Feel good,
Real good, its the same old same....yeh
Feel good,
Real good, i dont got no more brain!


Shake your bodies girls ...especially to RaeLynn who got time to tag me after coming home from HRC.

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You can be such an ass sometimes so much so that I almost hate you You could spend hours watching soccer, wake up at ungodly time to watch live matches and you won't complain of being tired or sleepy or body aching. Ask you to spend a couple of hours entertaining me and you start to be tired lah headache lah blah blah blah And I am not even asking you to do anything. Well, ok just hold me in your arms while you go and sleep - that's fine with me. It's just as well you know how to placate me when I'm mad at you. And that's why I resent it so much when you watch soccer matches. It takes your attention away from me. Actually...anything on the TV takes your attention away from me

In spite of your assness, I still love you

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supply you with all the TLC that you can
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you need moral support, or just a shoulder to
cry on. Though he is still young, he lacks the
experiences of life, and can be naive.


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Why the fak did I ever let you get under my skin huh You got every right to say anything you beladi want. Mulut ko pe bukan mulut aku.

Should I apologise for something that wasn't even meant to be a putdown Guess not huh? Why should I? You said it yourself I am always right so why should I apologise for that?

I am not even going to stoop to your level and come back with a nasty remark. As long as Ash loves me for who and what I am and for the way I look, why should I care about whatever crap that comes out from your fingertips

Anis the Emo

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you: and abt me being fat and all, let me tell u tis. i am always and will always be fat in ur eyes. period. and tats wat u will always see
me: huh? ni apa angin plak aleh2 je
you: what do u mean by huh? did u realise tat u've been harping on me abt me being too happy and membuak2 since day 1?
me: ehhh...aku komen je pe. don't have 2 fak me lah. malas aku nak layan
you: not fakkin u wat. tu pon nak step invisible? wanted to tell u off the last time, but then si adrian nak pakai tepon plak. so there u have it. i am telling u now.
me: next time..bilang aku when i said it. not now when aku dah lupa. ko slalu camni. boring sial aku. tak hepi dgn aku..trus cakap je lah. tak yah tunggu bulan2 tahun2. aku bukan ingat lagi
you: should have known me better. aku nyer org suka simpan2 per. cos i know tat if aku blast then and there, i am bound to hurt people.
me: at least when u blast me then..i know wat i did wrong
you: but come to think of it again, its true lepas aku dah simpan banyak2 people forget and people just misunderstood blah blah blah
me: mcm skrg..ko blast aku..of course lah darah aku up sebab tu aku kata aku malas nak layan
you: i'll tell on the spot the next time. to everyone
me: yeah rite. like u always do
you: always do what
me: i meant dat as a sarcastic remark. buat dulu lah..baru ko bleh cakap...ko nak blast org straight away
you: well, of course lah ko lupa. who would remember watever comments they say abt others rite. lain lah kalo ko yg kena comment
me: watever lah pompan. aku dah kata aku malas nak layan. ko nak gemok mcm babi ke..kurus mcm tiang lampu ke...ko nyer sluar dlm..lain kali aku tak komen apa2. aku diam je...ok??

First you made me angry then you made me cry. Aku tau lah aku tak jambu. Ko tak payah nak remind me of that fact. Dah ramai sangat yang ingatkan aku. I never meant to sound as if I am putting you down. It was just a simple innocent comment on my part. But it was a damn big fakking issue to you.

So you happy down there. Aku pun tumpang happy lah untuk ko. Sometimes I forget how nasty and cruel you can be. Maybe aku sengaja tak nak tengok apa yang so damn obvious.

What you mean that I take everything you say personally? I shouldn't when I know for sure you were talking about me? Or were you talking about some other emo person in your life? I cannot take anything personally, I should grit my teeth and bare with me but you can?

And just what is up with u telling me tat i am fatter than what u used to see me as before. And when the hell is tat before? Whats with u? And u just simply have to harp and harp and harp about it all the time we talk. What is up with tat? So yeah, maybe i am freakin "happy" here...and so, what is up with tat too??? I know i am always SO fat and so imperfect in ur eyes. Yeah right. Like ur damn perfect urself. Dont even let me start....I know i am fat but ur ugly, and i can diet. Harh! Maybe before putting others down, u should figure where u are at in the first place

Part mana sial yang aku keep on harping about you getting fat? You can get fat for all I care. It was just a stupid comment that I shouldn't have said anyway. Aku nak kutuk ko?? What right have I got? Lain lah kalau aku ni jambu sangat macam Miss Universe ke. And I am not saying that I am now trying to be right. Memang betul pe I don't mean anything by that remark. If you put on weight because you are happy, that's fine. Maybe it was cold out where you are and that's why u eat a lot. Ehhh why bother explaining? You would say I am trying to get out of the hole I am in right now.

Fak yu and everyone else. You should know me better after all these time we spent together but I guess you don't. I know something like this would happen sooner or later but it was too soon. I should have known better than to try to salvage anything from this. I am never a forgiving person but with you I tried to forget the hurt and pain you cause me. Always accusing me of always wanting being right but when I am not guilty of what you are accusing me of, I should keep my mouth shut and not feel anything? What about you? You never made mistakes where I am concerned? You can say anything you want but I can't because I would hurt your feelings?

I felt so fakking tired. So tired of trying to please you but everything I did salah je di mata ko. Ko nak apa lagi dengan aku? Isn't it enough knowing how badly scarred I was by you? I am never right tapi what you expect me to do? Grovel at your feet, kiss your ass, asking for forgiveness? Why bother to renew our friendship if you still going to be the bitch that I am starting to dislike? If I am that much a bother to you, forget it all. No more buddies, no more sistas, no more friends, not even acquaintance. Remember that? Maybe we should do that now.

Aku betul malas nak layan.

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Happy Fathers' Day in advance...in case I forget. I barely knew my own dad. My parents were divorced when I was 9. I don't really know what happened then but what I do know now is that my dad had accused my mom of trying to put a spell on him by giving him nasi kangkang. On the spot, mak mintak cerai. Aizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Sometimes I do miss my dad I used to be envious of all the little girls who cuddle their dads, hold their hands, give them piggy backs. I had known no such joy. In fact I had a miserable childhood of staying with a relative who picked on me and my mother's son once our mom was out at work.

The last time I laid eyes on my dad was when I got married. I needed him to be my wali. 16 years - that was how long we got separated. I remember that time I met him at Tanjong Pagar railway station. He was petite - just like me. Very awkward at first. Didn't know what to say after I kissed his hand. Honestly, I can't say I hate or love my old man because I really don't have feelings a child should have towards her parent. He didn't watch me grow, he wasn't there. He returned to Malaysia ( ayah aku orang kotai ) and married another woman not long after the divorce was finalised. He have 4 kids now. At least that is how many kids he has since I saw him 6 years ago. Maybe he had added another family member, I don't know. He didn't even know I'm a divorcee for the past 3 and 1/2 years. I didn't know how to tell him. I should tell him soon. Takut ayah aku pengsan bila dia tengok anak dia bawak jantan lain gi rumah dia Wonder how he is doing now. Hope he and his family are all right

Daddy Wasn't There by Ming Tea feat. Austin Powers

Daddy Daddy wasn't there
Daddy Daddy wasn't there to take me to the fair
It seems he doesn't care
Daddy wasn't there

Daddy Daddy wasn't there to change my underwear
It seems he doesn't care
Daddy wasn't there

When I was first baptized
When I was criticized
When I was ostracized
When I was Jazzercized
Steak and kidney pies
When I was modernized
When I was circumcised
Daddy wasn't there


When I was first baptized
When I was criticized
When I was ostracized
When I was Jazzercized
Steak and kidney pies
When I was modernized
When I was circumcised
Daddy wasn't there to take me to the fair
To change my underwear
Daddy wasn't there

Daddy wasn't there peace

If you got a Daddy issue, here's a Daddy tissue

D to the A to the D-D-Y
D to the A to the D-D-Y
They say it’s just a fact, but I’ve a dead beat dad
D to the A to the D-D-Y
D to the A to the D-D-Y
I’d sit in my room and cry and I ask myself the reason why
Daddy, Daddy
D-A-D-D-Y, peace

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Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
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Went and met up with my baby yesterday. God, how I miss him! I miss him the moment I am no longer beside him. Emm I better get marry soooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Poor guy! He waited for me at Gek Poh with his sleepy eyes. No doubt the result of not getting enough sleep. The periuk calling the cerek hitam eh u pa. Anyway he told me he wanted to relax - meaning no romen-romen lah. Peng aku muahahahahaha. After dinner, we watched one of our favourites drama series The Dead Zone, about a guy who woke up from a 6-year old coma and realising he could have psychic visions about a person just by touching him. Sambil tengok tv sambil belek-belek buah peler dia He never seemed to be insecured about anything until last night when he asked me in a lustful voice "suka konek papa tak ma?" Of course I do lah papa. I like your dick, I like your chest, your biceps, even your bouncy tummy. I love everything about you just like you love me in spite of my pau Aliff-like boobs

Just want to tell you pa..I love you so very the much. Bila nak kawin ni? Mama macam tak sabar lah nak ditebok by you Don't forget your promise that you would impregnate me a month after nikah eh papa

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You know something...I was so horny yesterday I surfed the net looking for anime porn Anime is Japanese cartoon and I was looking for the pornographic version. My gal pal was shocked. I could imagine her mouth hanging open like this I searched for free sites but all of them demand payment either by credit card or by cheque. Pala butoh lah aku nak gi bayar dorang At first I admit I was looking with lust. Later on I admired the artist's creativity. It's a shame I don't have any talent in drawing or sketching somebody's face. I would love to do that. Aizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Gal pal told me she was jealous that I was geting famous. I assume she meant famous via blogger. No need to have that feeling. Who was invited to bloggers' meeting? Who was having time of their life in chatters' gatherings? Who was the one having a social life out of the net? Definitely not me And you are my friend. Don't ever think otherwise. Even if you couldn't help me out, the moral support you gave me is quite enough thank you very much