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muka obit aku...my god..buruk sial muekekeke...tengok perut aku mcm perut pompan keling in the movies..aiseyyy malu nyer aku...pas aku post ni sure kena kutuk  

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Wahhhh new classy-look blog. Got confused at the beginning. Ada dashboard...macam dalam kereta pulak

Tak tau apa citer tadi with Ash and the mother tapi topik is the very the basi - about his elder brother who has yet to find job. Aku baru dengar bini dia dah quit her job at the pub. Boss mana nak simpan cashier with big tummy. Tak keje pulak masih boleh merayap pulak. Kalau ikutkan hati aku, I would lock them out. Pi mampos kat luar. Dah lah dok umah tak tau nak bantu-bantu bayar apa-apa,...mcm bos besar sial suka-suka balik suka-suka keluar...on tv...badok...membuta kalau tak sampai matahari kat atas pala tak kan bangun.

Mak Ash bela abang dia...or at least try to see from her son's prospective. Si Ash pulak kalau dah marah asal boleh hembus je. Whatever mak dia berbual ada je dia nak bangkang. Dia dah bebel-bebel dengan mak dia...pandai pulak suruh aku gi tenangkan hati orang tua tu. What the hell can I do? I tried talking to her about some mundane stuffs. Mula-mula dia macam bo layan...after a while dia lembut hati. Nasib baik. I am really uncomfortable to be in the middle of any sticky situations.

Though I love you..a lot...sometimes you do behave like an ass lah papa. I wish I was brave enough to take the batu lesong and hentak pala you with that.

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I tried but as you can see I'm lousy at this *sigh* Nana...help meeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

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*sigh* My friend is finally settling down *sigh* Oh, I'm happy for her...of course I do *sigh* After all the crap she had to go through, finally she finds some happiness. She has better relationship with her family, she found a great guy, she got a good job. But why do I feel as if I am going to lose her as friend? Maybe not now...but eventually. I do wish you well. Even if we drift apart because of whatever, you know you can count on me to be there whenever you need me.

God, I felt so much like a loser. I'm changing the title of my page...something appropriate to what I am feeling right now. Holidays seem always to bring me down.

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Tomorrow my last day of work before the holidays come. Yahoooooo!!!! Tapikan sayang siak...Wednesday aku tak keje tapi Ash keje so I will be home alone. The bad thing is I won't have anyone to pester me but the good thing I can chat the whole day, playing songs in the chatrooms and tarak orang nak au-au dengan aku muahahahahaha.

Heard this song while on the way home. I don't know lah eh...maybe my mind is naturally always on the sexual part of life but this song reminds me of testicles muahahahaha. You can't blame me after going through the lyrics.


Chocolate Salty Balls by Hayes Isaac
Two tablespoon's of cinnamon,
and two or three egg whites.
A half a stick of butter?. Melted?
stick it all in a bowl baby.
Stir it with a wooden spoon.
Mix in a cup of flour,
you'll be in heaven soon.

Say everybody have you seen my balls
they're big and salty and brown.
If you ever need a quick pick me up
just stick my balls in your mouth.

Oooo suck on my chocolate salted balls
stick em in your mouth, and suck em!
Suck on my chocolate salted balls,
they're packed full of vitamins, and good for you.
So suck on my balls.

Quarter cup of unsweeten chocolate,
and a half a cup of brandy.
You throw in a bag or two of sugar
and just a pinch of vanilla.
Grease up the cookie sheet.
Cause I hate when my balls stick.
Then preheat the oven to three fifty
and give that spoon a lick?

Say everybody have you seen my balls
they're big and salty and brown.
If you ever need a quick pick me up
just stick my balls in your mouth.

Suck on my chocolate salted balls.
Put em in your mouth, and suck em!
Suck on my chocolate salted balls,
there packed full of goodness, high on fiber.
Suck on my balls.

[sniff, sniff, sniff]
Hey, wait a minute.
What's that smell.
Smell like something burning.
Well that don't confront me none.
Long as I get my rent paid on Friday.
Baby you better get back in the kitchen.
Cause I got a sneak'n suspicion.
Oh man baby, baby!
You just burned my balls!
Help me, my balls on fire
????? baby
my balls are burning
give me some water!
Pour some water on me!
my balls are burning
oh my goodness,
I'm blow'n
I'm blow'n
do somethin

Oooo Suck on my chocolate salted balls.
Put em in your mouth, and suck em!
They'r on fire baby!
Suck on my chocolate salted balls,
put em out baby, blow
ohh
Suck on my balls baby
Suck on my balls baby
Suck on my, red hot, salted, chocolate balls
come on baby
woo, woo
suck on my balls.
[blow blow]

By the way for those people who come here to have a look at my life page...don't judge when you don't know me. I just can't understand your problem of coming in here and then start to bullshitting in my tagboard and being, in short, the maderfakker that you are. I don't invite you in here...I don't encourage you to read my page...I don't even know you so quit au-au at me as if you know me. Just read and enjoy. If you don't like it, you are welcomed not to come in here anymore. Ok?

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Manchester lost 1-0 to Wolverton...the lowest palcing team in the EPL....Yehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...Hepi sial aku kalau Man U kalah. I don't dislike the club but I hate the fanatical fans especially to that 1 maderfakker. Fuck you man!!! Padan muka club kalah. Lu nangis ke pe? Muahahahahahahahaha

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I know you were being nice to me yesterday for a reason even if you didn't admit it. You read my last entry right? You covered your tracks right? It's ok...I still know what you had done. You never did do anything without reason and taking me out to dinner last night was just that...a reason to cool me down?...to make me feel better? I don't know...

But still I thank you...I appreciate you for what you were thinking of doing. I think any person who is thinking of living together with my mother deserve an award. I can't stand living with her...but if you can...bravo to you. I'm sorry Mum but that's just the way it is. I don't want to live with you because I can stand your mouth.

Dah lama aku tak singgah blog orang, there were so many changes that I was unaware of. People change their URLs, change their blogs' look, people stop blogging...*sigh* Change is good sometimes...

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There is this new year resolution I didn't jot down here because I was really serious about it...and it was not to have any more hanky-panky with any guys. I realised I love you too much to jeopardise it all for a few moments of romance. I don't know whether I'm being paranoid or what...or maybe you just giving me a taste of my own medicine. All I can say is that I am feeling insanely jealous.

I know about your spy program on the pc. I have known about it for sometime. I don't know why but something makes me log in for a view. I know you chat while I was at work. I don't mind because you will be bored at home anyway. Honestly speaking I don't mind you chatting with other women chatters but I resent the fact you called some other cibai "baby". Isn't that endearment reserved just for me? Am I not your baby?

I didn't want to ask you straight away because I didn't want you to think that I was spying on you. But of course I am. I thought about it a while and it didn't hurt so much but I am just not happy you called somebody else baby. I know I have been a bad girl the past year but I promise to myself I would be a better person. I know it's not easy but I am willing to try. I try not to irritate you as much as I used to. We are going to be together for a very long time kan and I really want our relationship to work better than my parents' did.

No...don't say anything. Right now I am feeling insecured. Remember the times when I used to tell you that I felt as if I don't have much time with you...that one of these days...you are going to leave me..that whatever I have been living for is no longer there? It's the same feeling. I have this fear that you could anytime walk away from me. I could find somebody else to replace you but they wouldn't be the same...they are not you...

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First day at work and many people on leave. I heard from my lao ma (old mother) Irene was arrested by the police during lunchtime. I wasn't sure exactly if the police came and fetch her but she wasn't around after lunch. It might be nothing just that one of her friends was involved in drugs and she was hauled in because she was with that friend. Nak kena tanya dia on Monday nanti.

My haircut didn't arouse that much attention. The most common That I was asked was why. Because I am sick of keeping long hair...because I'm quite frankly tired of seeing my hair dropping everywhere...because I wanted a new look.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me. Early morning nak pegi Shng Shiong for my mother's grocery supplies. Dah hantar barang-barang dapor kat umah mak singgah Jurong Point jap nak beli beg that I have been eyeing for soe time. Then baru singgah umah adik Ash...badok lah apa lagi muahahahaha. Later in the evening Ash ajak watch that Lord of the Rings: Return of the King movie. Better late than never pe.

And Sunday?...The time to cuddle and wake up late.

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It's 2004 already. Isn't it fast? It feels like it was just semalam aku selebret tahun 2003.

So what are my resolutions you ask?
(1) Not to ponteng-ponteng keje unnecessarily
(2) Practise patience all the times and not get worked up when others are slow or not doing anything my way
(3) Get married...insyallah
(4) Blog daily

Not as many resolutions as the year before huh? But I don't think I was successful in any of them anyway muahahahahaha. So this year I'm keeping it short and sweet and simple.

I finally cut my hair short yesterday. I was a little bit apprehensive lah. I have never had a good haircut. It always turned out to be a disaster muahahahahaha but this time round everybody praised. Ash's sister said it's nice, his mother said I looked so much younger, Ash couldn't take his eyes of me, he kept saying I looked cute and adorable but then he was biased lah. Kan aku baby dia...of course he said all those things. He did warned me before the haircut that if I didn't look nice, I better not go home to him muahahahahaha the monkey. Nana...thanks for accompanying me even if you had to window shop for a while. And whatever stuff I said that hurt you...I am sorry. I always shoot without asking.

This new year's eve I celebrated indoors je. Semalam beli E33 4 botol, 1 bottle of dry gin, 1 tin of stout. My intention was to get drunk but after a few sips of screwdriver, pala aku berat plak. By 11:30 aku dah tido siak muahahahahaha. Ash slept soon after. Told him that it was not the same drinking ramai-ramai and drinking just the 2 of us. In a large crowds of people, I could drink more because I wanted to show off lah yang aku ni boleh minum lebih ( padahal tak boleh muahahahahaha...I was never a good drinker). Nevermind...on the 10th nanti nak gi ronggeng kat Jamz. I'll drink more lah then. Sapa-sapa nak join, inform aku k. The more the merrier.

Ash's mother has just been discharged from the hospital last Monday after being warded for 6 days. She has high blood and the doctor said her heart is not so good but alhamdullillah she's fine now. She just needs some relaxing time away from stress. Who doesn't huh?

I am looking at the year 2004 with optimism. I survived after a tumultous 2003 didn't I? I believe I can do even better this year.

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I'm pissed off with a few people. Let me count the ways.

Papa...you always manage to irritate me at least once every day. Last night somebody called you kan? I think it was your boss or someone in charge of you at work. You didn't bother to tell me about the conversation anyway. I think the person on the other line was asking about your health, about your finances and stuff. You told the person you are the sole breadwinner in the family and you mentioned about taking care of your mother and niece. Then what the fuck about me? Am I not important enough to mention? So why the hell am I still living with you? Just because I ain't your wife, I'm not worth mentioning to your boss? After you hung up, you saw my black face, you asked me what was wrong. How could I tell you without flying into a rage? I am just not important to you...or in your life.

Nana...dah lah ko babel aku on that Sunday. That was ok after knowing some bitch was there with your stalker. I thought us not going was a blessing in disguise. Then semalam ko babel aku lagi. "Aku gi mandi dulu...pas mandi sambung" - how many times did I read that while we chatting via sms? Sampai aku tido pun ko tak sms aku balik. I am happy for you since you found him. And I understood you always want to spend time with him tapi tak kan tak bleh selit aku in between? Sebab tu aku dah jarang nak kol you or sms...I didn't want to intrude. I don't even know for sure whether you coming with me for my haircut.

Kaler...you are a friend...when I'm loaded. You are such an ass. If you can't loan me money, just tell me. I won't mind. Ko pinjam dari aku masa sesak boleh. Bila part aku yg sesak, you can't even help me out huh? That's ok too. I don't think I want to have anything more to do with you, you...you beladi idiot.

And you Naz...being scared without reason. Napa nak takut kalau tak buat salah? You have such a narrow mind I wonder why your wife stay with you all these years. If I were her, I would have dumped you straight away. I don't tolerate a man who is such an egoist. Asshole!

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I got caught flirting outrageously via sms last Saturday night by Ash. I don't know...maybe it was meant to be. I was using the chat on my handphone while sms'ing. I was sleepy and fell asleep without erasing the evidence. When I woke up at around 4 am, I found my phone by the side of the bed, keypad locked. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I guess I knew Ash knew. He always snored while he was sleeping but that time he didn't.

When he "woke up" late like he usually did, he didn't have his cheerful face. He went straight to the shower while I made his tea. He was unusually quiet and when I asked why, he said he was sleepy. He never cried in front of me but I knew he did and that broke my heart.

Later that afternoon, he asked me to follow him to the shops and bought me ice cream and chocolates - my favourite foods. I asked him jokingly was buying me all that some kind of bribe and he said laughingly he was trying to drown his sorrow. He told me he knew I knew what was going on and when we reached home, only then he admitted he knew about my flirting session. I told him honestly he was a married man with 4 kids and I would have never left my baby for a married man. I told him to me it was harmless flirting and nothing more. He said he loves me like crazy and told me not to break his heart. I told him I was bored sometimes when he took me for granted and if it takes another man to make him pay attention to me again, why not?

Ash was the most loving man all throughout Sunday and Monday. He was once again the man I fell in love with. He make me orgasm twice in a day, he couldn't take his eyes and hands off me even when he was watching soccer. I was once again the centre of his universe and I love that feeling of being loved totally.

I'm sorry baby for hurting you this way. Like I said, I couldn't help it. When I think you were paying less attention to me, I would go and flirt around. But I never had the intention of leaving you at all. You mean a lot to me...you always do. Nobody could ever take your place. I never wanted to marry anyone else but you. I love you...always do...always will be in love with you.

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Had much fun masa rewang kat umah adik ipar aku last Saturday. Dia buat kenduri doa selamat anak dia sunat. Auntie Mimi dengan Mak Long came down from Malaysia. I like them. Kita sume dok mengumpat je muahahahaha. I mean bukan ngumpat pasal apa lah. Just chit chat pasal hal keluarga. And I was being the joker. I love making people laugh. What I lack in social skills, I make it up with my stupid jokes.

Anyway, kak ipar aku yang terbaru tu tolong sekejap je. Potong-potong sikit-sikit dah tu pegi kepit dengan laki dia. Apa sehhh...Mak mertua aku has been bitching about her since day 1 and she's not making any effort to endear herself to the old woman. Aku tak cakap lah aku ni rajin sangat ke apa kan but at least hang around je lah kat dapor...bual-bual ke apa. Ni tak de...dok kat koridor tagak stout laki bini depan anak dia. Tsk tsk tsk.

Kenduri semalam was a success. Ramai siak orang datang. By a weird coincidence, I met a schoolmate from Jurong Institute. Rosli - I used to have a crush on him. He's married now with 3 kids. His wife is my sista-in-law's childhood friend. He doesn't small anymore muahahahahaha. He's still short but I think he put just a little bit weight.

Another thing nak bitch pasal kakak ipar kesayang laki aku tu ( muahahahahaha papa), Auntie Mimi baru je suggest dia tolong cuci pinggan, trus Kak Ana kata dia mabok muahahahahaha. Agaknya dia dah ngandong lah. Mana tau dah mantat dulu seblum nikah. I told my mother-in-law about that idea and she agreed with me abot the possibility. Kak Ana tu baik but...ntah lah eh...she just doesn't know how to adjust herself agaknya. She tries to be funny but sometimes her jokes are totally unklakar. I don't like to bitch about her. I don't like my mother-in-law to bitch about her either tapi cannot help it lah.

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I was thinking of going home yesterday because Ash was being such a dickhead. It was partly my fault lah. Lazy to go to work but I did go...I reached my workplace at 9 - an hour later. Ash was being such a jerk - au-au early in the morning. I dislike people nagging me when I am on my way to work so I gave him a sms to make him guilty. I said something like since my presence obviously irritated him, I'll be going home to my parents' place. Later in the afternoon he called and apologised. Bukan senang tau nak dengar dia say sorry. Macam tunggu emas jatuh berbungkal-bungkal kat pala korang muahahahahaha.

Lermekkk perut aku ni. Dah nak gi keje buat hal pulak. Mana sempat nak gi buat kek. Bagero siam betul lahhhhhhhh.

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Yehaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm broke. Nothing new about that. When was I not broke? Muahahahahaha. I should be worried huh? I am but what's the point? I won't help matters anyway. Right now I got to handle the house problem. My sister-in-law advised me to call the officer in charge and listen out what they recommend. If it 's ok to sell the house, she'll ask her hubby's auntie who is a house agent to deal with our case.

My brother-in-law was safely wedded yesterday. Agaknya dia terperanjat kan..kena sebut akad nikah 2 kali muahahahaha. Mana tak anjat. Kadi sebut ayat laju sangat. Even us yang listen pun tak dapat tangkap siak. He's busy making the whoopee no doubt with the wifey muahahahaha. Kakak ipar Ash tu lawa actually but she looked older semalam masa dia duduk kat pelamin. Damn the mak andam. Sebab tu kan Nana aku pobia pasal mak andam ni. You better find me a good one so I look if not beautiful pun pretty pun ok muahahahahaha.

By the way I'm having the flu right now and I am loving it. Bukan senang siak aku nak sakit. Don't think I'll be sick for far too long.